Monday, May 22, 2006

Steppin' To The Bad Side, or, I Am Changing (Dreamgirls)

Lately, and more and more, I've been thinking of letting go of my inhibitions and exploring the big bad world of sex, drugs and alcohol. Maybe I need to start drinking. Maybe I should find out what drugs are all about. Maybe I should be intoxicated and/or high in order to have good sex. And maybe I should actually bite the bullet and experience real sex. I don't like the taste of alcohol, I think drugs are evil, and I'm afraid of real sex. But I am 25, and as I start to actually feel my age, I think I might be mature enough to go ahead and try these things out. But I don't want to. But I do. I'm so conflicted. I just don't want to do anything I'll regret. But how I can I judge something I've never experienced for myself? Any wise words of advice? Like drink, try sex, but don't do drugs? Or, go for it, you only live once? I also can't decide if it's more mature to do these things or to not do them.

To quote my new friend Bernadette Peters "I have never felt like this. It's not like me at all..."

1 comment:

Warrior Princesse Alathariel said...

As someone who is experiencing 2 out of three lately, and has experienced all of them before, I can safely say I'm in the exact same state of confusion as you. Except sex. Sex is awesome. There's no question about that. The only thing bad about sex is when I don't get it.

Alcohol is alright. But it's just stupidifying. Why do we do that? Why do we spend our money to stupidify? Well, I don't usually spend money on my alcohol as I get it for free at work. But still, I only do it when I need it because I'm stressed but I don't want to depend on anything (except sex) as an antisadifier.

And sex when you're drunk is not that great. It's clumsier and shorter annoying. If the person you're having sex with can't hold his own weight, you have to and he might be heavy. And if you're drunk, you'll get hurt trying to hold him.

In conclusion, I don't know. But don't get drinking buddies, that's just bad news. Use existing buddies and maybe drink with them.