One Plus One Equals Three (Side Show)

Things are going well with Languages Boy.  I really like him.  He really likes me.  I can get over the fact that he's so young.  I can get over the fact that he doesn't have hair on his chest.  I can get over the fact that he talks during movies.  Ok, I can't get over that, but I can not to go to the movies with him ever again in my life.  I just have one issue.  Just one.  I don't think I want to be monogamous.  I know, right?!  Me, not monogamous?  The thing is, I'm being very careful to take this slowly.  I'm not introducing him to my friends.  I'm not spending every day with him.  I just feel that I don't want to commit to someone right now when so many people are attracted to me right now.  You know what I mean?  Like when I'm single, I can never find anyone to pay attention to me.  Then as soon as one person shows interest and I like them back, everyone comes out of the woodwork and wants to make out.  I want to make out back!

There are two guys that I recently broke things off with.  One guy was the black guy.  Most boring person I've ever met in my life!  Literally no conversation to be had.  But between the sheets... that was nice.  Then one day in late January he came on my new sheets and I stopped texting him and started screening my phone calls.  It's been two months since I've made any contact with him and he'd spend most of February trying to contact me.  Then two days ago, I accidently logged into MSN, where be immediately started up a conversation.  I apologized for my behaviour and called myself an asshole, and said that I'm seeing someone now and can not go on seeing him.  Dude was totally understanding and called me sweet and cute and said he still wants to be friends!  Say what?!  Boring guy wants to just be friends?  No thanks.  I explained to him that my attraction to him is too great and that it would not be fair to Languages Boy.

Second dude I was dating was Obnoxious Guy who I got a kick out of but not in a sexual way.  I broke it off with him when I started up with Languages Boy, by telling him I just want to be friends.  He understood and we hung out as friends and all was good.  Until this past week when he started getting making advances again.

Add in all the guys I've been meeting and resisting, when I know there is mutual interest, sexual or romantic.  Ugh, I would like to make things work with L.B.  But I also want to get some fooling around out of my system.  I moved back to Toronto expecting to be all slutty.  I want to be slutty!  I worry that I can't ask L.B. to be casual and non-exclusive right now, because he's made it clear that he has no interest in making out with anyone else.  Even though I said it was ok!  The burden of romance.  I'm really not convinced that I'm ready for this.  I'm actually a little worried that I'm going to end up cheating on him.  I don't want to do that.  It's not me.  Bah.